ive done my best and aims to get what i want
aim to be the one who can share with
but the problem is,i cant control my own emotion to deal with problem tht r coming
now, my parent had discovered who's my special one
i thought this year there are brighter experiences i have
but then, i dont see any brightness but gloomy feelings i got
i strted to think which way i should start my changes
i need somenone who can guide me to the right way, and still, i chose him to guide me, and i believe tht he can guide and treat me as special as well
but till now, i havent see everything of what i thought, eventhough there are changes in him, i think i should be more patient, and keep looking on him,while i change myself silently, eventhough he doesnt look at it.
im distress,dissappointed with all things tht happen
i hope i dont make any wrong decision
as well as i want to be the one who is believed by 'you'..and im waiting and keep on waiting for that rewards as i cant foresee what will happen next, but ill try to keep on praying to Allah to ease my life and determine which way i shd go.
anything tht makes my heart hurt, i hope Allah will support my effort, and still give me strength to maintain our relationship
and we'll know right, Allah doesnt give us big problem if we're not strong aite.. so, i guess im strong
im not weak, bcoz if im weak, i will not defend my relationship, if im weak, i will take granted of my relationship, if im weak, i dont treat my special one as no others would deserve my special treatment except 'him'.
i really hope tht Allah open my eyes, and keep on give me guidance in discovering this life with 'him'.
i hope so.
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